In my Sweet Little Alice Blue Gown
The play would beginWhere I’d skip, bow and spinAnd I waited for daddy to see - to see …Daddy to see only “Me”In my sweet little Alice Blue GownMomma’ sewed my dress To match with the rest Girls giggled and primped and squealed The sewing machine...
The Dogwood Tree
A few months after my younger daughter died of a fentanyl overdose at age 27, I moved to a town where I knew no one, lured by a new-construction house on an undeveloped half-acre lot. The developer had put in a few plants by the front door, but the rest of the lot was...
Breakfast in the Twilight Zone
(Trauma Warning!)Fourteen years old: I’m in bed for the night, but still awake. Daddy-Monster enters my room. I pretend to be asleep. He pinches my nose closed with his fingers. I open my mouth to breathe. He covers my mouth with his...
رسالة من الوالد المحب
مرحبا طفلتي العزيزة، لقد عرفت أنك مصابة بالذعر والخوف، كيف ذلك يحدث وأنا هنا، هل لاتثقين بي؟ أشعر نوعا ما بالتقصير لغيابي عنك بعض الوقت، لكنني هنا الآن هل تشعرين بوجودي؟ هل عادت الثقة بي؟ لقد حاولت طلب المساعدة من قوتنا الأعظم بالأمس حتى يجعلك تشعرين...
Gaslighting
What a terrible space to live in being Gaslighted from the person you believe in... It starts off being innocent but the person becomes more diligent...I know what I see, I know what I heard but the look on their faces reflect absurd...Beginning to build up emotional...
To Grow in Time
The tree of my life, a mystery to me My branches haven't all yet grown I've got to go through these growing pains But wouldn't I already know? I'm beautiful the way I grow I look at myself Just then a new leaf grows I swiftly evolve, I change I look again and an old...
When Worlds Collide, Part 1
Recently, at the ACA Regional Event in Boca Raton, Florida, members from the Strengthening My Recovery Meditation Meeting (WEB0120) had a chance to gather together. For years, these friends had only seen each other on a screen - as live videos, as avatars or...
When Worlds Collide, Part 2
Recently, at the ACA Regional Event in Boca Raton, Florida, members from the Strengthening My Recovery Meditation Meeting (WEB0120) had a chance to gather together. For years, these friends had only seen each other on a screen - as live videos, as avatars or...
Do I Want my Inner Children to Grow Up
Yes, I am holding them and loving them as they never received. I am doing my best to be a loving parent. As a parent to three actual people, my job was to nurture and love them as they grew; to celebrate with them their accomplishments, to see them become successful...
My Inner Loving Mountain Goat Parent
He helps me take the next step upward. He reminds me that I have horns to set clear boundaries. He climbs with me, not ahead of me. His voice is gentle and assertive. He teaches me to take the moral high ground. He teaches me to focus on the...