Unresolved Issues
Some of my struggles with steps 2 & 3)Step 2: Came to believe that a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity.Step 3: Made a decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God as I understand God.Two decades of childhood domestic violence...
A Child Of God Died Today
A child of God died today.When I see my parents as children I see the abuse andNeglect they survived.I see them as hurt, helpless souls trying to make senseOut of a life that must have seemed senseless.A child of God died today.What do we see when we look at a picture...
ACA Literature and Spiritual Language
We know from ballot proposals submitted to our Annual Business Conference that our fellowship wants our literature to become more loving, gentle, and inclusive. In 2021, a ballot proposal was passed to update shares to include the lived experience of our worldwide...
Nothin’ To It!
An oldtimer in 12-Step recovery who hosted a weekly meeting for seventeen years relates, “A fella asked me, ‘Les, when am I going to get happy in this here program?’ and I said, ‘Nothin’ to it. Just stop doin’ whatever’s making you unhappy. That’ll do the trick.’” The...
A Much Needed Look in the Mirror
(Becoming my true good self.) For as long as I can remember, I believed that if I did good things, that would mean I was a good person. Even as a small child, I felt the urgent need to be known as good. I followed the rules, made good grades, did my chores, etc....
Truly Julie
Pretense
Lace curtains, bountiful philodendron, satin table cloth, pepper grinder from Germany, salad served in a crystal stand.Pretense for a tiny townhouse, linoleum floors, rattan sofa, cheap water glasses, washer and dryer in the kitchen.The framing of the shot hides the...
Hiding
it’s an old coat, worn, patchedand a little tight under the armsand I slip into it with easehaving worn it many timesit’s very greyness,blandness,a pathetic disguise;a futile defenceI stand,transgressed,compared,ignoredI freeze,hiding in plain sightuntil her anger is...
Natural Cycles: This Too Shall Pass
Former friends of mine, both blind, live near the Mediterranean Sea, where there are no tides. Once, we were near another sea, with tides. To show them what it looks like, we walked on the beach, barefooted, from the embankment to the sea, at different hours, so that...
On Needing Food and Love and Me
Can you please feed me? I’m sorry to bother you. Yes, I know I’m needy. Sorry about that. I’d like to not be hungry but my tummy is starting to hurt and I’m getting weak and shaky. I need food. I wish that was all I needed. I need things that I dare not...