To Scream the Unscreamable Scream
Oh, for lungs to scream a scream that would fully express my grief, that would shake the earth,that would crumble the hillside in front of me. My first memory of daddy-Monster:I am three years old.I receive his fists as I lie in bed.He yells, “It’s your...
Sisters
two sisters, home alonemom working as a teacherdad is a ghost, not aroundmom workingthe fighting, the tearsdad is a ghost, not aroundlocking herself in our mom's roomthe fighting, the tearsno way to call momlocking herself in our mom's roomi am helpless,...
My First Quarterly Meeting
I came into the ’12 Step Recovery World’ over 30 years ago, ab“soul” utely b-r-o-k-e-n, having fallen beside the hearts of those who had walked before me to eventually crawl myself back into a body of dignity, hope and strength. One year ago, I found ACA and it is...
Peace Warrior
(An internal dialogue concerning the battle between peace and bitterness)Born into violence, I choose peace.Deceived by toxic theologians, I breathe peace.Manipulated and scammed, I inhale peace.Threatened and slandered, I exhale the...
Mon Dieu, donnez-moi…
Mon Dieu, donnez-moi de découvrir ce que signifient ces cinq mots : ils sont si mystérieux, si étranges, si inconnus, si exotiques… Mon Dieu, donnez-moi…LA FOI……pour rester “abstinente à la peur” quoi qu’il arrive.(outils : 2ème Etape, alimentée en cultivant la...
Is Self- Responsibility Safe?
If I have been conditioned to believe that, in practice, being responsible means being blamed, or, on the other hand, being burdened, I may have not realized I have had this trait, this triggered reaction embedded in my attitude until I run right into it in...
A Love Letter to Fear
Dear old friend,We have been together for such a long whileThere were times I was consumed by youUnable to breatheGritting and grinding my teethThe weight of the world on my chestCrushing my little one's heartI understand where and why you are so prominent in my...
Step One And Beyond- Powerlessness And Power
I am powerless over:— in childhood —• being born unwanted• the generational violence which created my parents• daddy-Monster’s hatred, violence, immaturity, and drunkenness• mom’s bitterness and excessive drinking• my reckless brother’s violence, foolish choices, and...
Orphanage
This poem is about a character from my favorite TV series, Anne with an E. It was written about a very mean character and reveals some of her backstory and the trauma from her childhood. she scrubbed the tile floors watched as the bubbles seeped through the cracks in...
Plus Jamais d’Auto-Trahison / Self-Betrayal No More
Dans plusieurs livres traitant d’emprise, j’ai lu cette histoire: « Une mère offre deux cravates à son fils : une bleue et une rouge. Mais… S’il met la bleue, c’est qu’il n’aime pas la rouge. S’il met la rouge, c’est qu’il n’aime pas la bleue. S’il n’en met...