Plus Jamais d’Auto-Trahison / Self-Betrayal No More
Dans plusieurs livres traitant d’emprise, j’ai lu cette histoire: « Une mère offre deux cravates à son fils : une bleue et une rouge. Mais… S’il met la bleue, c’est qu’il n’aime pas la rouge. S’il met la rouge, c’est qu’il n’aime pas la bleue. S’il n’en met...
But He Doesn’t…
He's a good man, you say But he doesn't honor my feelings.He's a good father, you sayBut he doesn't respect their boundaries.He has a big heart, you sayBut he doesn't when he is judging others.He's a smart guy, you sayBut he doesn't know how to manage money.He's...
I Am A Boulder
I am a boulder. Shaken, pushed, and pulled by gravity and violent geology. A large boulder slid, tumbled violently out of control, and crashed into me. When regarding the damage, the chips, cracks, and pain, I looked back bitterly and resentfully at the large...
A New Year
When I was a child and got into trouble for misbehavior, I would promise to “do” better. In recovery in ACA, I want to “be” better. I want to be my authentic self instead of making empty promises and continuing to pretend to be someone else. I want to talk about what...
Look For It!
Beauty is something to look for, something I miss if I am preoccupied with getting things done, or worrying about something that will happen. If I am out of actual danger right now, I have the option of looking, just for the tiny slice of time it takes to raise...
My Brother’s Drastic Exit
(A poem about suicide grief, my personal grief over my brother's final decision.) Darkness. Deep, deep darkness.Possible brain Injury from childhood.Shaken baby syndrome?Mental trauma from abuse and neglect.He had offered to fix up his mother’s home while she was...
Well done, thank you, help!
I want to share a recovery tool I love when working the Steps. It’s daily texts between the person or persons working the steps and the others working the steps if it’s in a group, or the support person, sibling traveler, sister traveler, fellow traveler, or sponsor....
Écrire, C’est Ça ou Mourir / Write or Die
J’ai écrit ce (trop long) poème il y a 29 ans, étant encore en amnésie traumatique, confusion, déni… Aujourd’hui, je le dédie à tou(te)s les ami(e)s en 12 Etapes (toutes Fraternités confondues) qui s’y reconnaîtront, eux(elles)-mêmes et leur souffrance...
A Christmas I Remember
(Note to my fellow travelers: I wrote this on 30-Nov-21 as I was “looking forward” to Christmas.) Christmastime:A time of peace, love, joy,anticipation, hope, giving,goodwill towards all. I remember Christmas:I was five or six years old.We arrived at a friend’s...
Missed Chances And Mistakes
Missed Chances and Mistakes. Do we “deserve” a second chance—or a third one, or a fourth? Are there “do-overs” in life? In 12-Step recovery, we have them, every single day. No matter what we’ve done—or failed to do—if we are in these rooms or on these calls, we are...