I Keep Holding On
There are times when I lose awareness of the moment, my complaintsare increasing. Flaws and criticisms take the place of my blessings, preferring those I am unhappy withto my soul. Whereas I multiplied my realizationsmore focused on what I can do.not a few times! I...
You, Me and We
When you made decisions for me under the guise of taking care of me; you were actually controlling me. When you used the ubiquitous “we” and spoke for both of us because you thought of us as one; you were actually discounting me. When you decided all the cars and...
Mistress Of The Void
A void opens up and I’m spinning again,This is fine, I come here to be alone.I want anything but this,But at least no one can hurt me here. The emptiness scoops me up and welcomes me home.Belonging to the Nothingness seems appropriateFor a girl who learned to be seen...
I Knew But I Really Didn’t Know
I knew I didn’t want to be like my mother.She rubbed off on me anyway. I knew my Dad was a drunk who abused me and I was scared of him.I hoped that would change but it didn’t. I knew I didn’t really want to marry my first husband.I did it because I didn’t know it was...
The Mask
I woke up at 5:15 am, covered in sweat. Scared. Tight. Shallow breaths. What in the world?Took some breaths. Deep. In. Out. Breathe. I held my arms around myself. You are okay. I am here for you. Why? Where did this come from? Why do I continue to have these feelings?...
A Me Mommy Day
Last year on Mother’s Day I had the blessing to spend it on a visit with my adult daughter and her family. I had a perfect day. Both my sons called me, and my husband called to wish me a Happy Mother’s Day. I exchanged fun texts with friends who were also celebrating...
Mum’s the Word
En travaillant ma 1ère Etape avec ma « compagne de route », (Livre Jaune, p. 29, question 6), je lui ai lu à voix haute le poème suivant, écrit en 2007. Il illustre les règles « ne ressens rien » et « ne parle pas », comme la photo de cet œuf muselé, qu’une amie m’a...
Building Trust
Loving Parent Tools & Techniques, pg. 146(Part and Paraphrasing) The Loving Parent GuidebookWhen we take action as our own loving parent, we deepen our commitment to reparenting ourselves and building trust within. With practice, it feels more natural to make time...
2022 ABC Results
The 2022 Annual Business Conference, which took place over 3 days entirely on zoom, included a number of new features. First, as the conference takes place 9am to 5pm Eastern time, delegates from certain other time zones are not able to join the meeting during...
Unlearning Distorted Thinking
I was scrolling through social media dreaming about all the things I want to do because I see someone else having fun doing it.After about 30 mins, I realized I'm starting to get judgy, of myself and others…Criticism, jealousy, envy, self-pity I put down the phone to...