Amends
To amend. Not to amend. Sounds like a footnote. Something not very important.Also sounds a bit like sewing repair. Hmm…It seems amends within 12-step programs are an incredibly vital tool. When I feel bad about something, how it went, what I said,I can make...
The Bride To Be
I can remember a photo of me… Black and white, cut out of a newspaper…My dad, a photographer who rarely took pictures of his children…A photo of me, taken by my dad…I am wearing a full-length white satin wedding dress I madeand pearls. A necklace and earrings.I look...
Taming Terror
TRIGGER WARNING: this share describes violent facts and feelings. Don’t read it unless you’re ready to face them.These facts took place when I was between 17 and 21 years old.Ten years later, I dreamt about it, a nightmare so terrific that I woke up sweating and with...
Objects That Have Comforted Me Over The Years
Hmm. Comfort. What is comfort? Connection, care, contact, and concern.I needed it in people, not objects. Consistency. Comfort? I had a threadbare stuffed cat I loved and used for a pillow.It gave me comfort when I was little.On a day when dad was doing a dump run, he...
Emotional Sobriety
What does it mean to me?Not getting on the fast train to nowhere.Choosing to get on the slow train - the recovery train!Having more intuition and discernment on board to know when I’m in a triggering situation.Having my loving parent on-board to guide me through the...
Amends Vs. Sorry
When making amends, responsibility for my actions is included, and changing my ways.Choosing not to do that again, or at a minimum to be on the path of changing my ways. “Sorry” on the other hand …The “Say you’re sorry…” of childhood is just toxic in my book.Of no use...
My Cat, RC
RC. I am her human. She is my cat.She has a proper name of “Reya Sunshine.”A program friend shared with me… She calls my cat RC. I asked, “RC?” She said, “Recovery Cat.” A tabby with green eyes! Beautiful to look at, lovely to hold.Little did I know that “green eyes”...
I Am
I am not the tension in my shouldersI am a warm summer breezeI am not my hypertensionI am a warm summer breezeI am not the give out in my kneesI am a warm summer breezeI am not the tight muscles in my hipsI am a warm summer breezeI am not the extra cushion around my...
An ACA Meeting
An ACA meeting is an island of sanity in a world gone mad. Miriam C
Truth and Heart
I watch your eyesthe tilt of your headcurve of your lipsah, you need happinessthe way you slumpor mumble your wordsand fidgetyou long for touchyour quick tongueand stomping feetas you rant and waveif only someone would listencue sparkle in my eyesthrow back my...