Taming Terror
TRIGGER WARNING: this share describes violent facts and feelings. Don’t read it unless you’re ready to face them.These facts took place when I was between 17 and 21 years old.Ten years later, I dreamt about it, a nightmare so terrific that I woke up sweating and with...
Objects That Have Comforted Me Over The Years
Hmm. Comfort. What is comfort? Connection, care, contact, and concern.I needed it in people, not objects. Consistency. Comfort? I had a threadbare stuffed cat I loved and used for a pillow.It gave me comfort when I was little.On a day when dad was doing a dump run, he...
Emotional Sobriety
What does it mean to me?Not getting on the fast train to nowhere.Choosing to get on the slow train - the recovery train!Having more intuition and discernment on board to know when I’m in a triggering situation.Having my loving parent on-board to guide me through the...
Amends Vs. Sorry
When making amends, responsibility for my actions is included, and changing my ways.Choosing not to do that again, or at a minimum to be on the path of changing my ways. “Sorry” on the other hand …The “Say you’re sorry…” of childhood is just toxic in my book.Of no use...
Love Letter
Beloved Inner Child,let me start by saying that it's an honor to witness you grow/evolve as a human being.You are a beautiful child, with an amazing capacity as both light and shadow worker.I am so sorry for all the times you tried to connect with others from a place...
Diapers
My little brother is 10 years younger than me. I was in junior high school,coming home to find mom outside weeding or something,and my little brother still in the crib… In dirty diapers, and rocking.Banging his head against one of the solid ends of the crib. Creating...
Broken and Whole
my leg will alwayshave been brokenI cannot heal well enoughto be as I was in the pastbefore it was brokenI cannot run into a future healingno matter how strong the bonehow faded the scarmy heart will alwayshave been brokenthere is not enough therapyfor a future where...
Escape from Religious Insanity
Many have told me to just trust God. But I struggle to trust the one who entrusted my newborn soul to the “care” of exploding daddy-Monster and placed me in an environment of two terrifying decades of childhood domestic...
What is ACA’s WSO and Why Should I Care?
Adult Children of Alcoholics World Service Organization, Inc. (ACAWSO) is a legally incorporated nonprofit charitable organization led by a Board of Trustees composed of volunteers selected to serve as corporate trustees according to the laws of the State of...
My Cat, RC
RC. I am her human. She is my cat.She has a proper name of “Reya Sunshine.”A program friend shared with me… She calls my cat RC. I asked, “RC?” She said, “Recovery Cat.” A tabby with green eyes! Beautiful to look at, lovely to hold.Little did I know that “green eyes”...