Diapers
My little brother is 10 years younger than me. I was in junior high school,coming home to find mom outside weeding or something,and my little brother still in the crib… In dirty diapers, and rocking.Banging his head against one of the solid ends of the crib. Creating...
Amends
To amend. Not to amend. Sounds like a footnote. Something not very important.Also sounds a bit like sewing repair. Hmm…It seems amends within 12-step programs are an incredibly vital tool. When I feel bad about something, how it went, what I said,I can make...
The Bride To Be
I can remember a photo of me… Black and white, cut out of a newspaper…My dad, a photographer who rarely took pictures of his children…A photo of me, taken by my dad…I am wearing a full-length white satin wedding dress I madeand pearls. A necklace and earrings.I look...
Taming Terror
TRIGGER WARNING: this share describes violent facts and feelings. Don’t read it unless you’re ready to face them.These facts took place when I was between 17 and 21 years old.Ten years later, I dreamt about it, a nightmare so terrific that I woke up sweating and with...
An ACA Meeting
An ACA meeting is an island of sanity in a world gone mad. Miriam C
Truth and Heart
I watch your eyesthe tilt of your headcurve of your lipsah, you need happinessthe way you slumpor mumble your wordsand fidgetyou long for touchyour quick tongueand stomping feetas you rant and waveif only someone would listencue sparkle in my eyesthrow back my...
Trust
What did trust mean to me as a child?As an infant - don’t. As a toddler - don’t. A little older, it is a pattern, don’t.Kindergarten as I crossed the threshold… I thought:“Adults and children aren’t trustworthy, just do the work.”Already had learned the...
Quoi non-dominante ?
Il y a quelques années, ma première “compagne de route” ACA/EADA m’a aidée à découvrir la littérature et les outils de rétablissement spécifiques de cette Fraternité, dont l’écriture de la main non-dominante, comme outil pour donner la parole à mon Enfant Intérieure....
I’m Not Alone Anymore
I am writing today to share some of the hope I feel, inspired by attending meetings for the last 3 months. Before finding ACA, at one of the lowest points of my life, I began noticing patterns emerging in my relationships, both platonic and romantic. At the suggestion...
Broken and Whole
my leg will alwayshave been brokenI cannot heal well enoughto be as I was in the pastbefore it was brokenI cannot run into a future healingno matter how strong the bonehow faded the scarmy heart will alwayshave been brokenthere is not enough therapyfor a future where...