Fighting Back

Yes, I know it is 40 years later, but a task came along that made me think of you.

I guess your deliberate and calculated cruelty did lead me back to treatment and, thanks

to a gifted therapist, I became aware of my illness (courtesy of my childhood) and I was most

gratefully cured. I have had a great life since and finally have found real love along with good

friends and a fulfilling career. For me, that was the spiritual reason we crossed paths. I needed

to get out of that life and, if you cannot hear the universe whisper, it will shout.

I have no idea what happened to you or even if you are still alive. You did engage in some

very dangerous behavior. Well, unless you had a stroke or saw God, I do not see how you could

have had a good life, but maybe I am wrong. In any case, I really do hope I never see you again

or that we cross paths in any way, shape or form. I do wish you problems – oh, nothing

earth shattering or life threatening (you will do that on your own) but to keep you away from me.

I have a sadness for us both, but it went so badly, it was a no win situation. You came

across as really wanting acceptance but turned out you had no intention of changing a bit.

I do not think you really feel anything except anger and maybe a twisted sense of cruelty

accomplished. Well, congratulations. But your crap just did not work. I froze and could not fight

back (fight, flight, or freeze you know except you do not know) but other people had no such

restrictions. They not only protected me; they helped, promoted and accepted me. I did

eventually fly away but I did pay them back as well as I could.

I have too deep a faith to wish you any harm (I never did) but as my grandmother said –

God’s mill grinds slow, but it grinds fine. I leave you to the universe.

kathy anonymous