I love you kid

I can’t possibly make up for what you lost.
Moments, opportunities, and time. Just gone.
Protecting you with fear.
That I played on repeat.
I kept you locked away, so desperately you looked for another to love you.
When I couldn’t.
It took me so long to see you.
To see things through your eyes.
Watching you smile as the sun shines on your face.
Or as shadows play across the floor.
Tiny rainbows on the floor when the Sun hits the window just right.
Little moments between the clock-ticks that seem to last a little longer than they should.
When you just play: happy, free, and safe.
I love you kid.