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Powerless

Powerless

What did Powerless mean to my inner child? I was powerless growing up in an incredibly controlling and narcissistic envelope, with players of various narcissistic flavors. No red flags here, all normalized. I was powerless over being assigned the role of family...

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A Pantoum on the Adrenals

A Pantoum on the Adrenals

Freeze - All attention must be on the current crisis.Freeze - I spend most of my day waiting for a crisis. Freeze - All resources must be ready to be deployed in the crisis.Freeze - All resources on constant standby.Freeze - I spend most of my day waiting for a...

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Hidden Disability

Hidden Disability

I was asked to write about myself – my hidden disability. Injured at work, determined to be permanent injuries by their own doctors, they called me a liar because they could not see my injuries. They bullied me. They threatened me. They pushed me within an inch of my...

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