Yes, I know it is 40 years later, but a task came along that made me think of you.
I guess your deliberate and calculated cruelty did lead me back to treatment and, thanks
to a gifted therapist, I became aware of my illness (courtesy of my childhood) and I was most
gratefully cured. I have had a great life since and finally have found real love along with good
friends and a fulfilling career. For me, that was the spiritual reason we crossed paths. I needed
to get out of that life and, if you cannot hear the universe whisper, it will shout.
I have no idea what happened to you or even if you are still alive. You did engage in some
very dangerous behavior. Well, unless you had a stroke or saw God, I do not see how you could
have had a good life, but maybe I am wrong. In any case, I really do hope I never see you again
or that we cross paths in any way, shape or form. I do wish you problems – oh, nothing
earth shattering or life threatening (you will do that on your own) but to keep you away from me.
I have a sadness for us both, but it went so badly, it was a no win situation. You came
across as really wanting acceptance but turned out you had no intention of changing a bit.
I do not think you really feel anything except anger and maybe a twisted sense of cruelty
accomplished. Well, congratulations. But your crap just did not work. I froze and could not fight
back (fight, flight, or freeze you know except you do not know) but other people had no such
restrictions. They not only protected me; they helped, promoted and accepted me. I did
eventually fly away but I did pay them back as well as I could.
I have too deep a faith to wish you any harm (I never did) but as my grandmother said -
God’s mill grinds slow, but it grinds fine. I leave you to the universe.
kathy anonymous
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