There was one thing I wanted to share yesterday but God had other ideas. I found myself experiencing deep grief yesterday after hearing a person in the morning Annual World Convention session share that her mom resented her very existence. I felt the exact same way about my Dad. My eyes began to tear up, as they are again right now, and instead of holding back the tears, I let them flow.
It was painful to relive those feelings of worthlessness, but it was necessary and God was there to make sure I could handle it. One recovery tool I have been using in ACA since my early days is from the Tony A. talk on his suggested new ACA 12-Steps and why the AA Steps shouldn’t be used in ACA. That tool he shared is to look at myself in the mirror, give myself a hug, and say repeatedly “I love you, Sean.” I did just that in my truck, and then I immediately reached out to my fellow traveler to discuss my feelings. He gave me the loving support that I didn’t get as a child and rarely get from my wife.
The day after the AWC, I said today is the first time I ever wrote “Self-Care” on my calendar. ❤ And I wrote it big so I won’t try to fill the day with other stuff. 😂 I don’t know what I’m going to do for myself yet, but I do know that I’m going to take a well-deserved break from meetings and phone calls. ❤
It’s such a blessing to have a family here in ACA that I can talk openly and honestly with without fear of judgment or criticism. Thank you all for your loving support. “
I’m grateful for the opportunity to serve as a delegate at the ABC representing the ACA Formosan Group in Taiwan. 🇹🇼 ❤
I’m grateful for the opportunity to share some of my story from the heart in a massive ACA meeting filled with so much love and understanding. ❤
I’m grateful for the unimaginable opportunity to close a Global ACA meeting with the Traditional Chinese ACA Serenity Prayer. ❤
Sean H, Taiwan