Shattering silent stillness, heavy dark night
Brilliant morning spills over a crisp horizon
Spiritual awe-ache-ening
Gawking griefstreaked shock
O, Unnameable One,
quiet, timeless Presence,
it was always You.
Merciful firmament
victorious vessel
ecstatic child luminance
Alive!
but not for long…
The first angel speaks:
Words of love
set me afire in foreign lands…
Holy Spirit
sharp light
splits clear.
Tiny baby body,
You claim me,
(redemption of the little man’s touch)
I stand in shadow,
service to the Light.
I am Innocent Goodness,
unwelcome in this senseless world
my miracle state,
a threat.
Years of abuse
numbness withstood
in the
vibrating promise of Your love.
You came to me through the moon
bathing in the blue sky
white clouds frame a three-quarter face
I never knew She existed outside of the night.
Violate, rage, rampage
They destroy,
I learn:
Don’t talk, trust, or feel…
Darkness closing in
velvety soft
cape
all around.
O, Quiet Oneness,
I learned to find You in the Deep Nothing;
took my light to the shadow and
abandoned it there, childhood forgotten…
in the familiar embrace of Void
an angel comes whispering:
Everything happens for a reason.
I find the strength to go on.
A decade of destruction
then
O, Nameless One, You came to me at last
and told me your name
bestowed upon me as my own:
Faithful Light of the Heart…
Voices of The Sangha,
sing songs of Compassion…
finally,
belonging.
Now,
this snakeskin browngreen shedding
and pinkred as a newborn babe,
here You are…
My new family prays
for Serenity,
Courage, and Wisdom,
to set it all aside.
Brush of cool electricity
waves of light ripple
across my calm
breath of life animates
this simple
empty vessel.
Vulnerable, weak;
no way this survivor made it
through thirty-two years of hell on her own,
it was
always
all-ways
You…
Veronica A